picture by Jason BurmeisterThe Turning Point !!!!!!!!!!!!
I am getting better, no matter how much longer it takes, the changes are happening.
My therapist told me about generalization. That is where each accomplishment I make (like mastering driving on some new scary roads to me)also affects me in other areas. After that I was able to drive on a highway I usually avoid and wait in the emergency room by myself for the doctor - just a nasty ear infection. It seems things are starting to sink in now, I can feel more confidence. I have a very good feeling that I can start taking action.
GOALS:
reach the point where I do not feel lost anymore
keep increasing confidence
lose the confusion and difficulty in concentrating
lose the overwhelmed feelings
take steps toward fixing my financial situation
Every little thing I do counts for something. I have been teaching myself to make rings. I will be looking forward to this being a steady part time income and also have a part time job outside the home. I think that would be good because I don't need to be shut off from the world, I need to be learning to live in it. I have been scared to death to get a job someplace new, what a HUGE thing that will be when I pull off starting a new job or getting back into my old one. HUGE huge !!!!!!!!! What a scardy cat I have been !!!!!!
I am so thankful for the special people in my life right now!! Could it be that I have been getting a little stronger inside everyday just by not giving up and pushing myself no matter what? Everyday is a new chance to accomplish something, anything!! Tomorrow is a beautiful thing.
