REACHING UP

A lot of things going on right now. It's not good to lose track of the one day at a time thing. Which I have, so once again here's me picking my behind up off the floor and moving forward. I will be repeating that action many more times I'm sure. This is when it is wise to count your blessings.

Humble is a good word to do some deep thinking about too. When I get to Heaven I am going to give Louis Armstrong a big squeeze for singing that" What a Wonderful World "song !!!!!

My journey continues.
bamboo path in Japan by roadrunner_Flickr

Blogger Therapy

Couldn't make it to therapy today and I had so much on my mind and a lot of questions popping up in my head ! Now that something inside of me that is calling the shots wants to really get going with the understanding myself part. What is that anyway? It is pretty cool whatever it is. I need to find out why I am afraid , what all this confusion is about, why I can't seem to pull myself together and what I should do about getting medical coverage. Around and around in circles, that is all I have been doing for the last month. I am on my own last nerve.

The Family Reunion

picture courtesy of Jason Burmeister / Flickr

It was beautiful!!! Treasure of the day: an old family picture of my grandmother's large family when she was young. Early 1900's - button up shoes, pinafores, and faces you could stare at for hours. The people it was such a treat to see: Cousins. They are wonderful relatives you share your childhood with, laughing and playing, simply loving them, and it sticks. Lovely people to talk to: relatives that remember your grandparents. They have stories to tell and precious pictures to see. New: A bond between brothers and sisters starting to grow, a way to honour the Memory of a dear Mother. Feelings: A little sadness, a lot of pride, and a delicate joy that seemed to be carried in the breeze. This is my family and I love them ! There just wasn't enough time.

Dealing With It

Ok !! Had such a great night at the party, and the very next day went into a depressive slump with lots of confusion. Still pulling out of it. Apparently a very big part of getting well is getting to know yourself and understand what is going on. I knew I had my work cut out for me !!!!!I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, it is just not easy to really see it. The family reunion is today, somewhere inside of me I am excited !!!!! I wonder what my post tonight will sound like??!!