The Major Accomplishment

ME !! I actually had one today !! Being the way I am , I never go ANYWHERE I don't have to.
No going out, no movies, no eating out, nothing. Today was a graduation party for my niece Melissa, and I really wanted to go. Thought about not going, but changed my mind and went.
I am so glad I did ! It was at a beautiful home and everyone was so nice. I was actually talking to people and not being scared of them. In my little world that is a BIG deal !! Right now I am feeling very humble and shy writing this, but I also have a very good feeling inside. Could this be a little piece of the real me peaking out? I hope so, it was such a pleasure! The people there will never know how precious the smiles on their faces were or how lovely it was talking to them, but I will never forget !!!! Today anxiety and depression were only words.

Sunbeams

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It really seems like such a waste of time to be going through what I am with the depression and everything. It is there, it is real and it has taken a whole lot of life away from me for a long time now. I guess you have to reach the point where you see it as totally unacceptable. All I know is I want to be alive and happy, with no fear in my life at all.

Many years ago at a very painful, heart wrenching time of my life, everyone said that I was in an impossible situation. With God there is no such thing!!!!!!!! Child-like faith and a peace that passes all understanding became a daily reality. The situation was resolved. Praising God and thanking Him for the answers that are going to come, is a very powerful lesson. I love sunbeams, they are like a little piece of Heaven peaking out, streaming to earth lighting a path, a visual connection. A sunbeam is a reminder to me of being brought through that terrible time, and now will be an inspiration as I look to my future!!!!!

Hope

I just remembered a beautiful song I knew years ago. Whispering Hope. The words go like this:


Soft as the voice of an angel, breathing a lesson unheard, hope with a gentle persuasion

whispers her comforting word. Wait till the darkness is over , wait till the tempest is done, hope

for the sunshine tomorrow , after the shower is done. Whispering , whispering hope, oh how

welcome thy voice, how welcome. Making my heart in it's sorrow , rejoice, rejoice!!!!!!!!


Isn't that beautiful?!! I think I am just going to have to hang on to any little piece of hope I can
now!!!

Open Roads

Well, I am doing it !! Taking steps toward my future, scary as it may be !!! I gave 2 weeks notice at my job, not able to do it anymore because of health reasons. I don't know where I go from here, but I am GOING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!